Day 6 - June 7

Lazy Rainy Day

Today I'm giving myself permission to be a bit lazy. This morning Lily and I colored in coloring books for over an hour. Simple Pleasures.

After running to Target to pick up a few necessities, Lily has passed out on the floor and I'm relaxing. Here in a minute I'm going to clean and organize the junk on the kitchen table. I need that table not just for family dinners but it's also my sewing table. I want to get back to sewing. I love it and it's therapeutic for me. Lily and I can also use that table to draw and color, play games, cook... lots of things. We have a small house and that table is very important to its functioning as a home. I think it's symbolic that I've let it become a junk pile - or at least the cleaning of it might feel symbolic for me. We will see. I just have to do it. 

Honestly, I'm fighting the feelings of depression. I don't like who I am and I've always felt that way. I can't run from myself so I either need to accept myself or do what I need to do to better myself. I think a little of both is needed. God please give me the strength.